I don’t want to be a mummy today

I don’t want to be a mummy today; I want to lay asleep in my bed until my body decides it’s time to wake up. I do not want to be woken up when my baby decides it is time by screaming at the top of his lungs.

I don’t want to be a mummy today, I want to eat my breakfast without someone trying to put their fingers in my bowl, or whinge and whine pointing to my spoon with an open mouth and tugging on my pyjama bottoms.   I want to drink my tea while it is still hot and not be distracted by the 6th time of going to the toilet with my toddler who keeps assuring me ‘A wee wee is coming’.

I don’t want to be a mummy today and be responsible for any other person apart from myself. I don’t want to battle with other little humans trying to get them dressed, fed, watered, entertained or keep them happy. I want to sit on the sofa doing nothing, reading a book or watching a television programme that is not CBeebies related.

I don’t want to be a mummy today; I want to be totally selfish. I want the day to be about me, not about my children. I want to think about things that make me happy, I don’t want to be a referee all day with my bickering children, and feel like a constant matron of discipline.

I don’t want to be a mummy today; I want to go out for dinner to a fancy restaurant that has an adult only policy. I want to be alone with my partner and actually have a conversation with him that is not about the children. I want to actually ‘do’ my hair not just put it in a ponytail; I want to wear my ‘going out’ perfume that is slowly losing its smell because it is never used any more.

I don’t want to be a mummy today, I want to go to bed knowing that I will have a full nights rest with no interruptions, and not face battles to get babies and toddlers to sleep. I want to fall asleep quickly without worrying about my eldest son when he is 17 and has his first girlfriend who breaks his heart.   I want to dream of sun kissed holidays spent lazing by the pool reading trashy novels.

Tomorrow………

I love being a mummy, I am so lucky and I would not change it for the world.

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11 comments

  1. This is so true, some days the worrying is so relentless. I dream of having just a few hours to fully rest my mind. Lets hope it gets easier hey! Thanks so much for sharing with #Blogstravaganza xx

    1. Thank you for reading and your comment, yes its just in that moment sometimes you feel like that, but a quick smile or laugh makes everything right again x

  2. Yup, I feel this on occasion, it would be lovely to not have to be responsible for others just for an hour or two, to eat my own lunch, to leave the house the instant I want to without gathering bags and bits and children! Still wouldn’t change it for the world though #blogstravaganza

  3. This is so true. Sums up the ups and downs perfectly. Today I’m loving being a mummy, tomorrow I’ll probably want to be alone. All natural I think! #Blogstravaganza

    1. Yes I think so too, I would definitely be lying to myself if I made out I loved every minute of every day. Thank you so much for reading and your comment x

  4. This is so true, I have days like this and then want to wake him up when I put him to bed #blogstravaganza

  5. Beautiful xxx I’m laying here in my little boys bedroom floor trying to get him to sleep,, so true words xxxx some days I don’t want to be a mummy either and then this evening he held my face and said you’re beautiful mummy x

    1. Thank you for your comment Becky – when you get moments like that all the other stuff is forgotten and everything is right with the world xx

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